That's partly how I feel. Tired and needy. I need to know what to do about church. Charlie and I both do. He is currently playing drums for the praise team. Him and another guy trade off Sundays. So, there is a lot of connection there that will have to be broken. Then I got a phone call this week from one of our friends from the church asking if I would help out with the children's ministry as her and her husband(who is the other drummer btw) are taking over the program.
Ok.. so about the time Charlie and I decide and feel like we need to "relocate", I get a phone call that indicates an area of needed help. Is this the start of my purpose? I still really don't think so. Not in this church anyway, but it seems the pressure is on to start moving out. But where??
So now lets talk about confirmation! This is the fun and cool part of how God works! So, we have been visiting a church on Sat. evenings that we really like and the pastor has been preaching a sermon series called MADE. He is discussing how God shapes people and molds them for greatness and service. He has spoken on Joseph, Paul, and King David. (we missed one service due to a birthday party)
Joseph was fashioned in the dungeons of Egypt. Paul after his encounter on the road to Damascus went into the wilderness (asia) for 3 years to be alone and pull everything together. To be silent and figure out God's calling for his life. And David was faithful in the small things. Tending the sheep and protecting them from predators. God was molding him with the small things until he was ready for the big things. So Zack, your words about King David... almost exactly what the preacher was teaching! Confirmation. Anne Graham Lotz talks about Joseph in her book and how Joseph would have never chosen the prison, but God knew he needed that time. Confirmation!! I'm waiting for Paul to pop up somewhere, but so far it's given me chills to know my God thinks so much of me to reassure this little house wife that I am not forgotten. I am precious and He is making a path for me. I have grown in my faith since I've been at home. I have studied more and looked deeper into God's word than ever before. I have begun to memorize scriptures. Hiding the word in my heart, that I might not sin against my awesome God!! I have felt a closeness that at times, it seems He is sitting right next to me when I pray.
So Lord, I pray now as I continue to walk out my faith that I grow, gain understanding, and increase my faith. I don't know what You have in store for my future, but I know You hold it all in Your hands. May this time of solitude create in me a masterpiece that one day You shall reveal to the world. All for Your glory! All for Your kingdom! Thy will be done in my life!